As George and I approach our third anniversary next month, I have been thinking a great deal about the kind of wife I have been, and consequently, the kind of marriage I have cultivated. I love George, and he loves me, but have I been the kind of wife who has set an example of loving, selfless service to my husband? Do I put his well-being before my own? I have to admit the answer is no. Instead of being thankful for my husband, I take him for granted on more occasions than I care to admit.
These thoughts have led me to reflect on scripture that has been continually popping into my head, no doubt at the Holy Spirit's prompting. "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" - truly, as a child of God, my husband is just that. "I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine" - how many times have I thought of and done things for George with the attitude that he is my beloved, and not just someone in my home capable of doing something for me? how many times have I spoken of him with honor, respect, and awe? regretfully, not enough.
While all of these reflections can seem to be very discouraging, I am feeling blessed that the Lord, in his infinite goodness, has not allowed discouragement to fall upon my heart. Instead, He has filled me with the determination to change, deep within myself, and be the wife He designed me to be, the wife He designed for my beloved. He has also given me faith to believe that in becoming that woman, a woman who respects her beloved, putting him before my own needs, our marriage will prosper in ways I could not have ever imagined. For nothing is impossible with God.